Bouncing

So I have a friend (more like my brother [I consider him my brother]) in the US, he was planning to visit me this summer, but I was not sure if it was worthy for him, since I have some courses at school and I wasn't sure if it was the time already, but I didn't use the right words and end up messing things around (as usual). I passed the last week thinking of what could be done, and despite not finding out when were the courses supposed to take place, I did discover that they last 2-3 hours a day, so it wasn't a waste of time after all. So I decided to give the 'yes' finally, I was actually excited for giving the news, but I messed my words again and as a result, the conversation itself.
Now I don't even know if I want to see him in person, it will be highly likely that I will hurt him again, and it would be even worse if that happens while he is physically at my side and in vacation.
I hope everything ends up right...

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Automatic Stop

Well, another strange weekend...
Yesterday I made my IPN test, I honestly felt it was a bit easy with the exception of Math, were I always do bad. I hope I do well overall. Results will be given around July 22nd.

I returned home and payer finally a visit to Chatzy, I was going to give some awesome news, but I was received with some questions and a 'hostile' like welcoming. I left to the supermarket, though, that was a bad move, besides it been boring, I thought so many things and end up been sad the whole evening. I returned home and then to Chatzy, though it was the same, so I ended up all depressed.

My grandma came to sleep here, but she stayed in my parents room.

Sunday was really normal, we went to the church and I went to Mauricio's house for my brawl so I could play in the evening with the Black Lions guys, but my Wii didn't read the disc. :-(

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Labios Rotos

Sé que estas en un lugar mejor, donde no hay dolor,
Donde antes los ojos del creador, no hay un perdedor,
Volando en el infinito estas, mirando a tú alrededor,
De mi nunca te olvides, te lo pido por favor.

Yo te prometeré que todo será mejor aquí,
Será mejor que me quede, yo mejoraré por tí,
Cuerpo pierde aliento, ojos pierden vista
Pero mi amor y deseo perduraran por siglos.

Pareciera el final, pero creo que esto apenas comienza,
Te prometo que yo nunca perderé la esperanza,
Pues yo se que nuestros caminos se encontrarán de nuevo,
Anda y ve, recuerda, tú eres mi mayor bendición.

Nos veremos pronto...

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Test

Well, I'll reopen the blog, that's the least I can do for my brother.

Well, second period is over, I just started third and last, fortunately, eighth failing any subject.

Today was really normal, Biochemistry teacher was absent and I had the day "free" since 12:50. I came back home around 1:25 and slept until 3:10. I went to train then, again, pretty normal. I came back around 6:40 and studied a bit of physics, I also did some Physics homework.

Chris, I still don't know when will those courses start and end, sorry.

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Black Holes and Revelations

What's the point of roaming, if I don't know what I'm going to do?

What's the point of planning, if you don't fully know the terrain?

What's the point of giving your best, if the barrier is impassable?

What's the point of having beautiful flowers, if your roots are rotten?

What's the point of being a delicious fruit, if you're toxic?

What's the point of apologizing, if you can't be trust?

What's the point of having you around, if I can't trust you?

What's the point of teaching me, if you don't even know you?

Why should I trust you, if you don't even trust yourself?

Why should I follow you, if you're going to a road end?

Why would I want to see you, if you're full of darkness?

Why would I move with you, if you're just going backwards?

Why should I be with you, if you're just an empty memory for me?

 

Questions, questions that will remain unanswered, questions that are not free of any shame.

Grab what's left of you, and go away, go far away, you don't belong here, you prove me wrong, I don't know you.

Leave me alone, the debris you left and me, that's all I need, I shall be back.

Go away from here, where you will have the possibility of doing what you want, what you think is better.

Your chance have been wasted, asking for more would be an offense for us.

There will be no flowers, no, not this time; there will be no angels, gracing the lines; just these stark words, I find; I had show a smile, but I am to weak; I had share with you if I could only speak…

…just how much this hurts me.